Thursday, February 18, 2010

Skinny Pants!

I have a very exciting announcement to make ...

I now officially fit into my Skinny Pants!! :)

Last year a couple weeks after the Jr Nationals, I bought a really cute pair of really small dress pants. When I tried them on, they were rather tight, but Jerry said they looked good (of course he did - he's a boy :P), so I bought them. And subsequently gained 15 lbs and wasn't able to wear them. So they hung in my closet with the tags still on until last night.

I tried them on 2 weeks ago, but they were still really tight, and I didn't feel I'd be comfortable wearing them all day at work. Plus, I was worried if I tried to sit down, my gut would pop the hooks open, and my thighs would split the seams. LOL So, with a sigh, I put them back in the closet.

Last night I took them out again and thought, "What the heck, let's see if they fit now." And they did! They're still tight, but definitely wearable. And look very cute, by the way! I paired them with a new (size Small!) form-fitting blouse. I love the fact that I can fit into these clothes and actually feel confident in them. I'm not constantly trying to pull my shirt down over any fat rolls, or sucking in my gut when I get up for one of my many restroom trips during the day.

I love that I have the power and control to change my body and make it look how I want it to look.

I love seeing my hard work pay off, and I love how confident I feel.

It's my goal this year to remain within 7-10 lbs of my contest weight. I feel it's a very manageable goal, and one that will keep me feeling good about myself. Every year I've competed, I've let myself gain 20 lbs in the off-season, and I'd feel awful about myself. I would cringe when looking in the mirror, I'd cry when I couldn't get my thighs into my favorite jeans, and I'd feel embarrassed to wear a bikini in the summer.

That's not going to happen this year! This year, I'm going to remain focused in my training and diet, and work with Jerry to come up with a reasonable strategy to keep me leaner, yet allow for a bit of relaxation. I need to keep reminding myself that if I want to break into the fitness modeling industry, I need to look like a fitness model year round. And if I decide to do a show, I don't want to have to train to utter exhaustion for weeks on end in order to be ready. I keep repeating to myself, "You're a National-Level competitor. Competing is more than a hobby; it's your lifestyle."

Here's to a victory with my Skinny Pants ... which will soon just be my Regular Pants!

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