Wednesday, February 3, 2010

There's no crying in baseball!

"Are you crying?! There's no crying in baseball!" - A League of Their own

"I don't cry! I work out!" - Starsky & Hutch

There's a cultural stigma about crying. Men are terrified of crying women! I know this because I cry a lot. I'm not ashamed or embarrassed to admit it, because it's just part of who I am. What makes me unique, though, is the fact that I regularly cry in the gym. Yep, you read that right. I cry in the gym. In the middle of workouts. Why? It's usually a combination of things: tired, hungry, frustrated, depleted. It's not from feeling sad, though, and it usually only happens during contest prep.

I bet you're thinking I don't train hard. Or that I'm just a baby, and I should suck it up. Quite the opposite, in fact. BECAUSE I'm training hard on limited calories, energy, and strength, I get frustrated. I push myself to the breaking point, and then train some more. Just because tears are running down my face does not mean that I'm going to stop in the middle of a set. No; I use it as strength and motivation to push through those last few difficult reps. I picture myself on stage, getting handed a trophy (or a sword!), my hands raised in victory.

Even though I don't think crying in the gym is unusual, apparently other people are stunned! I warned my boyfriend when we first met that I'll sometimes cry during a workout. He laughed it off and promptly forgot about it. Until a couple weeks later, tears started running down my face after about 100 lunges (which followed heavy squats, step-ups, and wall sits). He didn't know what to do! He got this panicked look on his face and stepped back to let me finish the set. After I composed myself, he and I talked about it and why it was happening. Now when it happens, he knows that I'm pulling on all my inner strength to get me through the set, and a minute later, I'll be fine and ready to move on to the next exercise.

As my bodyfat is steadily decreasing, I can feel my energy levels declining. I'm still pushing hard during my workouts; in fact, I'm in a heavy lifting phase right now. But I know the tears are going to appear when I least expect them. And I'll finish the set, wipe my eyes, and ask Jerry which exercise is next. A bit of an unconventional aspect to training, but it works for me.

Keep training hard and remember that your motivation comes from your inner strength and determination to be the best you can possibly be.


  1. I found your blog today and am reading all your posts, so my comments are a little late, but I completely understand the crying. I usually feel tears coming just after I am completely tapped out physically. After I have given everything I have during my training, the only thing left is a couple of tears!!

  2. Any suggestions on how to keep energy levels at a level that is manageable? I am just starting prep and the dip in energy has been a struggle. Any advice would be appreciated!