Monday, June 7, 2010

Atrocious Crime & Progress Update

Ok, so this is my 3rd entry of the day ... but I had some other things I wanted to post in addition to my usual ramblings about the insignificant things I think about during the day.

I'll start off with an update and a follow-up to Friday's tough decision regarding my Treat Meal. Jerry and I talked it over at length, and decided to go out to dinner on Saturday evening. The following factors were taking into account:
  • I wanted to wear my new teal dress. Yes, this was a factor. Srsly.
  • We both wanted to go out on a "date" ... our last one for the next 5 weeks.
  • I didn't want to have to struggle to stay on my diet the whole day if I had the meal earlier in the day.
  • Jerry didn't want to have to deal with me struggling to stay on my diet the whole day. ;)

So we went to dinner at Bertucci's, a nice Italian restaurant we both like. I was a very good girl and stayed on my diet the WHOLE day!! :) We both got all dressed up, and had a great time!

Neither of us really like this pic. I think I look fat, and he thinks he looks skinny. Go figure. But the dress is cute, right?!

After dinner wasn't so much fun, though. I've been struggling with severe acid reflux (GERD) and a hiatal hernia for the past 2 years, and when it flares up, it's NOT a fun time. I don't just get the standard "heartburn" feeling ... I actually throw up. Really not fun. :( I've had the standard tests (barium swallow, esophageal manometry, and an endoscopy), and am on preventative and maintenance medication for it. Unfortunately, the medicine doesn't always work. This time my reflux flared up pretty badly, and  I was miserable for 3 hours. When I weighed myself the next morning, I was only 1 lb more than Friday. I hope I kept enough food in that it spiked my metabolism, but I'm not really sure. I hope so, because it was my last Treat Meal before Team U.

I'm gonna backtrack a bit now to Saturday morning. After morning cardio, we took progress pics. I'm very not happy with these, but in the spirit of being open and honest, here they are.

The back pose especially makes me cringe! Pop quiz: guess where Kari stores most of her fat? Yep - glutes and hammies! Grrr Guess we're all our own worst critics.

I was 109 lbs in these pics, and Jerry figures I'll be on stage at about 103-104 lbs. The goal is to bring me in bigger, fuller, and tighter than the previous 2 shows. Challenging, because I for the Arnold, I was bigger, and for the Lehigh, I was tighter. So now we're going to attempt to combine the two into my best conditioning to date. Thus far, I've been able to improve my conditioning each show, so we're working hard to achieve a nice balanced, full, yet tight look.

I had to laugh after we took these pics, because my suit left Jan Tana Ultra 1 color all over me. For some reason, the smell of Jan Tana gets me all excited to compete. Is that weird? :)

Ok, next topic.

I threw away a donut. Yep, you read that right. I'll repeat it: I threw away a donut. It was prolly the most painful thing I've done in awhile. As some of you may know, I don't believe in wasting food (example: check out any of my off-season pics), and I don't believe in throwing it away. Ever. Under any circumstances.

I broke my own rule yesterday. So what in the world made me commit this most atrocious of crimes? I blame Jerry. Let me explain.

On Saturday morning, we swung by the grocery store to pick up some eggs. While we were there, I decided to pick up a donut to celebrate a belated National Doughnut Day. I figured that instead of having dessert at the restaurant, I'd just have the donut. Jerry said it was ok. And then we got home.

We then proceeded to have a "discussion" (ahem) about the definition of Treat MEAL. I use the term "meal" very loosely. Meaning, the "meal" could begin  at 5 pm while getting ready to go out to dinner, continue in the car on the way to the restaurant, and end several hours after we get home. Jerry's definition of a "meal" includes only the food eaten at the restaurant.

Apparently we were unclear on each other's definitions of the term "meal." And upon further "discussion" (and maybe some tears on my part), we came to an agreement. Eating the donut was not necessary, nor was it a good idea. After all, I'm chasing a PRO card. If I don't need to eat a donut, I should probably avoid it by running like hell in the opposite direction.

I couldn't quite bring myself to throw it out on Saturday (even after all the refluxing), but on Sunday morning, I looked at it, pictured it sticking to each of my thighs on stage, and tossed it in the garbage. I then proudly informed Jerry that the donut was now in the garbage (while silently crying inside), and that it would remain there (i.e. no digging through the garbage to pull it back out again. Yes, it's been done. No, not by me. Even I have some standards, small as they may be at times.).

My favorite kind of donut: apple fritter. The apples make it healthy, right? :)

I know I made the right decision, and if faced with the situation again, I'd do the same thing. I have a burning desire to earn my Pro card, and to be able to add IFBB Pro in front of my name. It just has such a nice ring to it, doesn't it?

And now my final topic ... what's on deck for this week.

This week is gonna suck. No, I don't have a negative attitude; I'm just being realistic. We increased both my morning and evening cardio times. Not by much, but every little bit makes a difference. We also made some small changes to my diet, and will be changing my training a bit too. All these changes will result in more energy expenditure on a greater calorie deficit. Granted, not much of a deficit, but it'll be noticeable to me, that's for sure.

I'm still feeling good today, energy- and mood-wise. I'm guessing that I'll feel ok tomorrow morning, but start to feel tired and sluggish in the afternoon, as my body struggles to hang onto the fat and water. If I don't get a decent amount of sleep tomorrow night, my guess is that I'm going to feel terrible on Wednesday. :) I'm looking forward to it, because it means I'm doing something right! I know that the worse I feel, the better I look. No, I'm not overly starving my body or ruining my metabolism; I'm merely getting ready for a show. We hope to actually ADD a bit of food next week, depending on this week's progress.

I'm finally finished rambling. If you've actually read this far, thanks for your patience! LOL I just finished eating Meal 4 while I was writing this, so I'm off to the gym to train legs!


  1. Honestly Kari, you have one *hot* figure! You will be earning that pro card very soon!

    I love that teal dress, it's so pretty! And you and Lucian look good, and so happy together.

    Congrats on throwing out that donut...takes will-power, determination and a girl on a mission to do something like that!

    Have a great training week!

  2. I have totally thrown away yummy treat food bc I cannot trust myself! The saddest was the Newman O's. My fiance has asked that I throw away half a loaf of banana bread I had only baked the day before bc he will eat the whole thing. I am also not allowed to make No Bake Cookies bc he will devour the batch. You seem to have a good hold on your diet. You will have that pro-card!

  3. Yes! The Smell of Jantana gets me super excited to compete again, but Hot Stuff even moreso!
    I have thrown out food too, and the 'discussion' you and Jerry had sounds EXACTLY like one TIm and I have had before. My non-contest prepping self will graze on goodies the entire day on th eweekend, and it's really hard to limit it to just one lil' meal!!
    I hear you sister!
    Keep it up this week. Every little bit of deficit you create - you'll feel it, but it will Show toO!!
    And, I LOVE that teel dress! You are rockin it!

  4. I stumbled upon your blog and I enjoy reading your entries :) I'm currently in a transformation challenge for Muscle & Fitness Hers and this is my first time trying to diet down and train at the same time. I'm keeping a blog of my daily struggles and triumphs throughout this 8 week process. Hearing of your struggles with donuts is nice to hear, because I am having the same problems. You have a great figure and to think that even you have to deny yourself yummy treats (and that you still want them) makes me feel, somehow, better. Thanks for sharing!

    PS: Krispy Kreme are my absolute favorite doughnuts!

  5. Hi, Kari
    so I remember you from Gold's Gym in Bozeman but it was actually a friend that told me about your blog and what a coincidence it was you! I always thought you had a GREAT body and that you trained very hard! But reading your blog it is difficult for "mortals" like me to understand your struggles with food as I have no idea what your "diet" is. Could you post a day of your meals in the blog?
    Keep up the good work and I hope you get your PRO card!

  6. Thanks so much for all the sweet comments! The longer I compete, the more I realize that we all face similar triumphs and struggles.

    Right now, my diet is extremely restricted and limited, in part due to my laziness and lack of motivation to cook several times a week. LOL

  7. I'm so glad that someone else struggles with the diet, a ton of the people in this sport act like they never have a craving and stick to the diet 100% of the time. I'll have hour long debates with myself on whether I should give in to a spoonful of peanut butter (which turns into five spoonfuls and a piece of bread lol ) then I picture being on stage with a flabby stomach and it stops me in my tracks! Good luck with Team U,I hope you get your pro card, you seem like a very genuine person :)