Tuesday, June 29, 2010

The Fit Mindset

Are fitness enthusiasts really that different? I'm coming to realize that yes, we most certainly are. We think differently, we act differently, we approach life differently, and we look different than others.

While I'm enjoying the start of my off-season and feeling like so many restrictions have been lifted in my life, I realize that my most people's standards, I'm still living a very structured lifestyle. I still pack my food every day ... I still eat every 2.5-3 hours ... I'm still following a rather structured diet during the week ... I still do cardio twice a day (most days) ... and I still train 4 days a week. Structure? Sure, I guess ... but it doesn't feel like it to me. I don't feel any pressure to HAVE to do any of these things. And maybe that's why I feel so free. I'm CHOOSING to live this lifestyle. And believe it or not, I'm actually ENJOYING it! It's like I said in my Jennifer Aniston post ...

"It's not something I HAVE to do ... it's something I WANT to do. I want to be able to go to the beach at any time this summer and feel confident about my body. I don't have to be in contest shape by any means, but I want to feel good about myself. I don't want to feel embarrassed, or have to explain that I'm 'off-season,' 'bloated,' or 'retaining water.'"

This past weekend, Jerry and I went to the beach again. And got stared at again. Now, I'm suffering from a slight case of body dysmorphia. Since I've spent the majority of the year being all ripped and lean, I'm having difficulty accepting my fuller, more rounded body. I know it's normal and healthy, but it's a completely different look than I'm used to, and I'm having issues adjusting my mindset. So when people at the beach stared at me, instead of feeling confident, I was embarrassed, and just wanted to put one of Jerry's shirts on to cover myself up. I had to consciously stop the negative thoughts and remember that even though I'm not in contest form, I still look ok compared to the average person. I'm not saying I look fabulous by any means. I just look fit (hopefully!). But because of my contest prep mentality, I view things a bit differently than Normal people.


Beach on Chesapeake Bay
We also had some treats this weekend. We enjoyed some great seafood in Annapolis, I made homemade DQ Blizzards, and we visited our favorite sushi place. And oh yeah, we had some fabulous BBQ sammiches at Orioles Park! We did Normal people things all weekend. And it was nice! But we were both ready to get back to the structure and clean foods on Monday ... which is not a Normal people thought!


Fresh seafood in Annapolis


The boat I want for Christmas


Orioles Park at Camden Yards


Rockin' our FREE 40th Anniversary Orioles hats
I'm back to eating clean foods this week, and had an awesome leg workout yesterday! I love training hard and I love feeling strong. I just need to keep reminding myself that looking "fit" most of the time is good. Looking contest prep lean most of the time is not so good. As much as I try to be Normal, I just can't deny that I have a different mindset.

4 comments:

  1. A common struggle amongst competitors and the average Joe Fit ;) It is comforting to know the struggle is shared. I look up to your work, and feel like a weight ;) has been lifted. Thank You for sharing.

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  2. Aw, don't feel embarrassed when you're stared at. It's like when you see something so beautiful you just can't look away. Relish it lol. I do get what you mean though, and I hope you're able to quickly switch the dysmorphia off and the confidence on, cuz you look GREAT. You do have a very different mindset from the average american, and even the average gym-goer/healthy eater. You're a step ahead, a BIG step lol.

    OH - cardio twice a day when you're not preppin for a contest. Damn girl! I got sweaty just reading that.

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  3. It's been over a month since my last competition and I'm still working on my own mental body dysmorphic issues. I think a lot of us competitors wish we could look the way we do while competing year round, but we also all have to remember that that'd be unhealthy. It's amazing that what we consider "free" is normal people's idea of "very structured." It's nice to know there are like-minded people out there. Keep rocking it girl!

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  4. You look great. I know what you're talking about though. I love seeing my abs veins and ribs. I know it's not the norm but I want to stay that way all the time.

    I was "normal" this weekend too and now I swear I look like I gained 10 lbs. LOL! It was the best weekend i've had in a while though. I was ready to get back to MY eating so that's a good thing :)

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