Monday, July 12, 2010

The Debate Continues

I'm still sitting on the fence about the direction I want to take regarding competing. This weekend, I followed Team U through online reports, and the more I looked at the photos of the new pros, the more discouraged I felt.

I compared the differences between Bikini and Figure, and really considered which direction I want to take ... and I still haven't reached a decision. Here's a list of random thoughts, in no particular order:
  • I like the physiques and posing of the Figure girls.
  • I want to have a Bikini look in the off-season.
  • In order to have said Bikini look in the off-season, I need to lose a bunch of muscle.
  • I want smaller legs. More specifically, I want smaller thighs. My shorts don't fit around my thighs anymore, thus making me feel  like a complete fat ass. Note to self: Shorts were purchased when I was, like, 20. Stupid comparison. Be more realistic, Kari.
  • I really don't think I could take myself seriously if I attempted to pose Bikini-style on stage. I'd be up on stage giggling to myself, cuz every time I even attempt to look sexy, I just look goofy. (Maybe that would be appealing to the judges, though??)
  • I feel like all my hard work trying to put on muscle over the past 12 years would go down the drain if I try to lose muscle.
  • Just because I wanted to do Figure for 6 years doesn't mean I always have to do it. I'd need to diet and train for Bikini too.
  • I don't think I could turn pro Figure without resorting to the Dark Side. And that's not a place I want to go. I just don't think I can get hard enough by staying Natural. So I'm resigned to always being slightly softer than many of the other girls.
  • I want smaller thighs. I noticed that all the Figure girls' thighs touch. I hate it when my thighs rub together when I walk or stand. *shuddering just thinking about it.
  • I'd really have to starve to lose some muscle. I hate starving.
  • The new Figure pros are very well-balanced, with just the right amount of muscle and leanness. I want to look like that. All the time. Note to self: Again, be realistic.
  • I hate my off-season Figure look. I look like a puffball sometimes.
  • My abs looked good yesterday. Maybe being this size isn't so bad.
  • My new shirt is really tight. I hate being this size.
  • Several Figure pros are switching to Bikini. Maybe it's possible for me too??
  • I'm jealous of all the girls who turned Pro at Team U. They totally deserved it, though; they looked awesome!
  • I'm 100% positive I wouldn't have placed well at Team U. Not this year, especially cuz my body wasn't responding like we thought it should.
So what's a girl to do?? I feel so wishy-washy; I despise being in limbo. I want to just make a decision and go with it. But I'm still asking myself two very important questions about each path ... "Will I regret following this path?" and "Will I regret NOT following this path?"

Jackie Hoppe - Figure Overall Winner at Team U

Nicole Nagrani - Bikini Overall Winner at Team U

I know this debate is really getting old ... and I appreciate all the feedback and comments I've received. Thanks so much for sticking with me as I waver back and forth and all over the board. For now, I'm just gonna keep doing my athletic, functional trainings and continue debating which direction I want to take.


  1. Both these girls look great! Wow! Bikini looks cut, thin and some muscle..figure girl, slightly more muscle. I just can't see you doing bikini...although, I think it's something you can do, and do well with....I totally understand your dilemma....But, I bet you would do well crossing's your mind set and what you want to achieve....You have the attitude of a whatever you will do well!

  2. I think both women look defined...of course. BUt I certainly see your point about touching thighs and off season. With such a small frame, I would say bikini but I am NO EXPERT AT ALL. I think you are doing a great job of weighing options ( no pun )

  3. Hi Kari-- I like this post. I agree with you that you have too much muscle at this point for bikini (care to donate some?), and... what I can glean from your blog posts thus far, you're right: it would be hard to see you as a bikini competitor posing like that. My jaw has dropped watching some of your training videos (awesome arms!!!). But at the same time, consider some of the more muscular bikini pros like Stacey Oster-Thompson. Maybe you could go for that kind of look?

  4. My only reservation about Bikini lies in the posing. Hopefully it's like new technology - the first few years/models are kinda wonky, and then they fix the bugs and the good version is released. Perhaps within the next year they'll start rewarding girls who don't look like they're auditioning for Scores or the next Vivid Video release.

    Sigh. A girl can dream....

  5. I love this post! I can relate to a lot that you've said... I wish I had a clear answer for ya!

    Have you thought about just hitting a local bikini show to see if you enjoy it?

  6. I can also relate, I went from being a fitness competitor all season but decided to compete in bikini at Team U. I was giggly and felt goofy my 1st few posing sessions for bikini, but felt good on stage. I made sure I SMILED and kept it classy. It was less stressful than fitness lol! However, I am still undecided myself. I say TRY IT!

  7. I wish you the best of luck deciding what avenue to take! I think you look great regardless. I would hate to lose all that hard earned muscle to do bikini though they do look great too. Good luck Kari.