Sunday, June 3, 2012

Whiny Toddler

I have a confession to make: I've been sort of crabby lately. A few weeks ago, I wrote about how little patience I had ... and now I have a feeling I have even fewer patience than before. I've been trying to come up with blog topics, and all the ideas I've been thinking about are more like rants. I really don't want my blog to be a negative thing, but sometimes my feelings are negative toward many things.

Things that currently bother me:

  • Pictures of food. (stupid Pinterest)
  • East coast drivers. They don't use their signals, they cut me off in traffic, they drive too slowly in front of me, they don't let me change lanes when I need to take an exit, I could go on and on.
  • Dumb questions. Why ask dumb questions when Google is the best thing ever invented? Use it, love it.
  • The bakery at the grocery store. I want ALL the bakery goods.
  • Delusional people. Sometimes I wonder what goes through people's heads. That's all I'm going to say about that.
  • People talking about all the "haters" they have. Stop posting aggressive messages about how much better you are than everyone else and I bet all of a sudden, you won't have any "haters" anymore.

I realized yesterday that I've been having sort of a negative outlook lately, and I don't like it. I'm normally a positive, upbeat person, but that seems to be the exception rather than the norm lately. Honestly, I'm just over prep at this point. I don't want to diet for another 4 weeks. I just want some dang cookies! Waaaah! Even to my own ears, I sound like a whiny toddler!

Focusing on the Positive
Changing gears, I'm choosing to focus on the positive right now: my diet and training are right on point and I'm really happy with my progress! I switched from a moderate carb diet to keto in the middle of the week 2 weeks ago. Why the middle of the week, you ask? Because I live with my trainer and made the unfortunate choice of voicing my progress concerns with him at midnight one night. Next thing I knew, my diet had drastically changed.

I felt both excited and upset about it. Excited because I know that keto is extremely effective for me and I get into shape quickly on it. Upset because I wasn't anticipating the abrupt change, and the planner in me wasn't prepared to deal with it. As always, the first few days were a bit rough, as my body transitioned from using carbs as an energy source to using fats instead. I've seen some exciting changes in the past 2 weeks, though, and I'm looking forward to bringing my best physique yet to the stage!

For the next 4 weeks, I'm making a resolution to have a more positive attitude. Instead of getting upset or frustrated, I'm going to try to see the positive in each situation. I don't know how successful this endeavor will be, but I'm going to give it the old college try!

When you're in prep, do you find yourself having more negative feelings than usual? How do you deal with it?


  1. My sister once bought me a little plaque that read "uh oh mommy's on a diet, now we're all gonna die" because I become a BEAST when I am prepping for a show :( I think its normal... and your only human and there is temptation EVERYWHERE! I specifically remember a show when about 4 weeks out I was OVER it. I just wanted to eat until I puked. I didn't, but I remember feeling that way. You've got this!

  2. I'm so happy to have read this. I'm four weeks out, it's my first prep and just yesterday at the movies I just wanted to stand on the popcorn line and order one of each of the candies displayed. I kept t thinking negatively as well and how I'm so over prep and then thought about how miserable and dissapointed I'd b in myself if I didn't make it to the stage in the best possible shape for me. I'm in a more positive state this morning and tackling cardio on the elliptical as I write this. We CAN and will. ;-)

  3. I completely feel ya on the living with your trainer thing.... I don't live with mine, but since we date it is just as bad. Whinning = I will pay for it later! :)

  4. Dont dwell on the negative, keep your mind focused on your goals. As a HS and college wrestler, i had many of the same temptations. When we allow those temptations to get us down or frustrate us and those feelings come out through our attitudes and daily lives, it sheds a bad light on our sports. Remember everyday, how mentally tough you are!
    --A UMM grad

  5. Too funny! I am not even dieting and I feel the same way some days. HAH! I should get a shirt that says, 'If you didn't ask Google, don't ask me.' :D

  6. I try to remind myself that I honestly need to just have patience... for myself! What you are doing is incredibly difficult, and having that kind of perserverance & mental dominance takes a lot out of you! Being kind to ourselves is the best we can do!